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5.10.2014

Ramblings about my so called busy life.

Life is busy.

I woke up early to attend the stake pinewood derby at 9.  I was late (whoops) but saw a few of my cub scouts there.  One of our cub scouts in our bear den won the first place in our ward's race, and then first place in our stake!!  Go pack 576!!  Our stake does our pinewood derby which is awesome, it makes me appreciate living in the North Stake again, and it makes my job as a Cubmaster much easier.

After my short trip to the derby I headed over to help with our Boy Scout camp card sales at Smiths until noon.  Cody complained of an ear infection so when I got home I helped him find a doctor that took his insurance, went with him to the doctor and then out to Cici's Pizza (thanks camp cards!) for a two for one lunch deal.  Both of us ate for about $9!  We went back to Smiths to grab some excess money from our card sales and then headed home to work on our very very sloooow desktop computer.  Hopefully I can get it fixed, if not, it's off to Fry's for us!

I am a very lazy and very selfish person.  I LOVE sleeping in, I love taking naps.  Being somewhere by 9 am is extremely early and rare for me.  I enjoy sitting on the couch snuggling with my pups and watching movies all day, or binge watching something on Netflix (thank you Sherlock and Breaking Bad for addicting me).  I don't enjoy cleaning my house or my bathroom or doing yard work (I refuse to do yard work.. that's a man's job) and I very often procrastinate on getting things done causing me to stress out and creating more work for myself.

For example-here is my counter, over-piled with dishes just waiting to be put into the dish washer. 


Things would be a lot easier if the dishes were put into the dishwasher at the time they were rinsed, but that means emptying the dishwasher and putting away the clean dishes... sad, I know.

I have this stipulation (I don't know if that's the right word, but I'm using it) in my head that the wife of the house should keep things looking pretty: she cooks, does laundry, sweeps the floors, cleans the toilets, dusts and just about everything else.  I do not fulfill this stipulation, I feel like I should, but I don't.  I don't cook unless it is prepackaged or microwavable and only when Spencer isn't home to cook for me, I don't enjoy cooking and hasn't been required of me in our 4+ years of married life.  I don't clean my house often enough (my two dogs make this task almost a daily requirement, which doesn't happen daily, ever), my back yard looks like a forest of weeds, my car is dirty, my baseboards need a good scrub blah blah blah, I'm sure you get the picture.

I am okay with not being the perfect wife my head thinks I should be.

I am okay with it because I work full time, I am a Cubmaster, I fill in for my scout leaders when they are not available or don't have any (which has been every Wednesday since the beginning of the year!), I attend boy Scout Committee meetings because my husband is the Scout Master and because I want to be there, I help with boy scout functions, I substitute in Primary, I help and spend time with my family. 

Things are very equal in the Swan household.  We both work full time, both have scouts, and both have other obligations to fulfill.  So, he cooks and I clean the dishes, he picks up dog poo and I pay the bills, etc.  This set up works for us.  

Spencer started school this past semester.  He's working full time and taking just a couple of classes a semester to start on his business degree.  I also have tax season.  I'm busy from the beginning of January to the end of April.  Spencer has been crazily busy between scouts, school, and work, and as proof, we've eaten a lot of cereal dinners the past few months... I don't complain though, I love cereal!  With Spencer so busy, I've had to contribute more and to learn to have more patience.  ie-We bought barn wood around Christmas to make a bed for our room... but we're currently sleeping on a plywood and 2x4 frame until we can get the wood ready for the remainder of it..This is where my patience is steadily improving... I really want that bed done.

I do a lot of service for my church- between my official and unofficial scout callings, helping out in primary, holding a baby for a mom that needs a break at church.  I also serve my family I pick up my brother up from work, I drive to my mom's house 3 hours away to drive to a baptism that's 3 more hours north. I've realized in the past couple of weeks that I am not as lazy or selfish as I thought I was, I do enough to earn that lazy Saturday afternoon or night binge watching my Netflix shows and ordering chinese takeout and to leave the dishes undone until morning.

While I am not a saint, and definitely have a lot of things to improve in.  I am happy with my current status of busyness vs laziness.  

Thanks for listening to the rant and my unorganized jumble of thoughts.